Tonight Addy is spending the night in her own bedroom for the first time. I’m blah.
With Joshua and now with Addy, Mike and I agreed to keep the newborn baby in our room (in their own sleeping area, either the Pack N Play or the swing) for the first few months to facilitate breastfeeding and to allow us to keep in touch with how they are doing. I was very happy we did this with both babies. Joshua was up every 2-3 hours eating, so I was happy to just roll out of bed, grab him, and hop in my chair to feed him. Addison has not needed to eat as often, but she had a couple of choking episodes in her first weeks that I was glad I was near to her to help her clear. But now she’s 2 1/2 months old and only waking once in the middle of the night to eat, and we have agreed that we’re ready for her to have her own space. Or more accurately, for us to reclaim our space.
I moved her things into her room this evening. It looks cute enough, with just her Pack N Play, my chair/ottoman, and a dresser. But our room…..ugh…..looks sadly empty. I remember this being a tough night with Joshua, when we spent the night alone for the first time since having him, and tonight seems as though it will go the same way. I will likely keep the monitor on high volume and go to her room to check on her several times. But, Mike and I will be able to converse in non-whispers and not be self-conscious of our cover shuffling (simply rolling over in bed causes our noisy comforter to crinkle like popping popcorn). That is how it should be.
So off to bed I go, for the first time alone in my bedroom in 2 1/2 months. I’m going to brush my teeth really loud and roll back and forth in bed four times before finally coming to rest. I hope for a good night for us, for Addy and for Joshua.
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Update 2/18/09:
Last night went just fine! Mike and I got in some good conversation before bed, a luxury we haven’t had in some time, and Addy only woke up twice to eat. Not bad! I did miss her very much. She just seems too little and helpless to have a big room all to herself, and ours definitely feels emptier without her. But, I’m not willing to do the whole “family bed” or even “family room” thing, so I guess this will have to stick.
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